bipolar blogging #1

I like to think that everyone already knows I have bipolar disorder. Bipolar I to be exact.

After my first manic episode I sort of kept quiet for months, maybe years. I didn’t let anyone in. I had lost everyone. I started high school so utterly alone.

I return to this blog post a month later, no end in sight. I am 3 for 3 on hospitalizations for manic episodes.

I spent most of high school stable. I dated someone who was very bad for my self regulation/ esteem. When we broke up it was round 2 of mania.

This is a quick post that may be elaborated on.

Three quick episodes succeeding stability is terrifying. The insight I have is enormous. I’m ready to take it all on. The Mercury Gatorade, the Saturn Return, and Pluto stationing direct in Aquarius. The times they are a’changin’. Until next time…

-Bella <3